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My sister and her best friend are trying to come up with a song for her talent show. She is almost always at her best friends house. Tonight when Dinner was ready I went upstairs and knocked no answer so I went into her room. I saw her laptop open with pictures of her favorite singer opened on google images and her singing a rock song and kept mention her best friends name and how she can't sing and this wouldn't be a good song to sing. She was also laughing and pointing at certain pictures saying don't give me that look. I was trying not to laugh and she just turns around out of nowhere and is like why are you in here and I'm like who the fuck are you talking to and she slams her laptop shut and yells at me to get the fuck out of the room. I was like dinners ready and she's like ok leave and the music stopped but she still hasn't came down for dinner. I told my mom what she was doing and she laughed. She is 17 and a senior in high school by the way.

Me and my boyfriend have been dating for almost 3 years. But here's the problem, I've had anorexia since I was 15. I'm now 21. At 15 I never liked my body image cuz I was constantly told that I was fat, overweight, should lose weight. Next to know, I started starving myself 24/7. By 15, I used to weigh around 123-ish pounds. By the time I was 19, I weighed a total of 40kg (about 89 pounds rounding). My weight has gone back up and down after many visits to the hospital to get force fed. No I'm not proud of it. At 20, I got a bit better but never fully recovered. It's still like this. I'll eat and be fine, then could be a week and I'm already considering calories, weight, body size, etc. I don't think my boyfriend understands that dealing with such a harmful and difficult E. D. can be such a hard thing to get through cuz it's essentially an addiction to weight loss and a thin body from psychological, emotional, and mental issues. Yes I'm aware what I'm doing is absolutely wrong in every sort of way. But my boyfriend always teases me in what he calls a playful way, but what I call an offensive way. I told him this and he got angry. He thinks it's so simple to put food in your mouth and eat when in reality of an anorexia, it's not since that's the fear. Plus, he's known the entire time that I've had an eating disorder for almost 7 years (turning 22 very soon), and he still doesn't understand. Maybe it's just a guy thing, I don't know. But please tell me who's being wrong. Me cuz I have an E. D., or him cuz he's failing to understand anorexia mentally, emotionally, physically, and cognitively. Or even the both of us.

im not wanting to receive any hate because anorexia is a serious health condition that affects many at such young ages today. I know my wrongs, but if you haven't lived with anorexia before, please don't hate on me cuz it's truly a difficult struggle for me from my past. Yes I'm in therapy to get help cuz it's driving me insane. I don't talk to my parents about it cuz they only make it worse