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I don't really know why but I don't feel sadness at all. Early this year my brother tried to kill himself and about a month ago my mother died. I literally feel nothing - nothing at al, I just do what I normally do everyday. I'm not blocking it out I just don't feel anything. All of my family was crying and heartbroken at the funeral and I literally had to pretend that I was sad so that people didn't think I was weird. I miss my mum, I guess, but I'm not sad that she's gone. It's hard to explain. She was a great mother though.

I feel a little bad when I do something to hurt someone - only females though (don't know why), so I guess I have a little remorse. I know that I am very cynical and that I don't care about other people, I have very little empathy. I feel other emotions - happiness, anger, despair, lust, frustration, hate. I don't feel emotions like joy and hope very often, if at all, but that could be contributed to my cynical nature. I also never trust others. Then there's things like love, which I think I could feel, but maybe I just haven't experienced it yet. I have no problem lying to people if I need to, but I generally don't. I hate other people, they're just so stupid and irresponsible. I did kill a few animals when I was younger. I am very solitary, I generally stay on my own reading.

I don't think that I am a psychopath, but I am not sure. The more I read, the more I start to think that I am. But I do feel some things (as mentioned above). I'm 18 years old, by the way.