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Maria is a 15 years old blue eyed blonde. she's a model and people often tell her how beautiful she is. She's had 9 boyfriends and had her first kiss in kindergarten. Maria was typically one of the popular girls and is good at flirting. When she was 14 she got into a fight with her best friend, so she grabbed her best friends boyfriend and kissed him right in front of her. A week later Maria got punched, kicked, had her hair pulled out, and was beaten in the school bathroom by three other girls. Maria screamed sorry! I'm sorry! and sobbed uncontrollably. after a sharp kick to her stomach Maria wets herself.

A year later after the fight Maria starts dating a guy in a relationship. She knows the guy is dating but she ignored it, kept flirting and leading him on. The guy eventually broke up with his girlfriend to date Maria. Then she kissed him on the lips. His ex girlfriend precious finds out. She calls Maria a s** and tells her to kill herself. Maria says your just jealous you aren't as pretty as me! A week later the girl pushes Maria down the stairs, beats her with two other girls then stabs Maria in the leg. Maria screams with horror as the blood gushes out and sobs. She almost bled to death but recovered at the hospital. She can walk normally now but still has the scars. She's now depressed and on anti depressants. She has nightmares about her high school days. Did she deserve it?

So I just found out that my boyfriend likes someone else...
At first, I thought he was the one, but then realized he wasn't and tried to break it off a couple of times and yet he still tried to hold onto me over the years. As you can guess, I grew to rely on him emotionally. I used to be an independent woman, and now I've found out that he likes someone else. I don't know what to do. And I need your help please.

The things he did to me over the years that made me want to break up with him:
1) He would stop me from going to the toilet, which I found controlling (I found this odd. I broke it off last year but then decided to give him another chance hoping he'll change as he apologized and came crying).
2) He would make jokes that all nurses are dumb, or are stupid. I never found it funny but he would say "geez it was just a joke!"
3) When I had social media, and if we got into a fight, he would delete my best friends off. I covered for him and lied to my own friends that hackers got into my account. He never took responsibility.
4) We went to his ball last week and he left me to alone for 3-4 hrs while he was hanging out with his friends. I introduced myself to all of them and talked to them, yet he would just walk off and whenever I found him, he would leave me. His friends kept asking me "why does he keep leaving you? Why are you eating dinner by yourself? Oh, we'll join you!" He would act like I wasn't his girlfriend in front of them by standing far apart. When I confronted him and asked why, he said "You don't work hard enough." I told him I do because I have a strong work ethic and have plans to go to med school, but he doesn't think I can do it.
5) He says I won't get a nursing job or get into medical school

So as you can see, I feel that because I have been with him for so long, I'm used to him and his ways. While I was with him, I used to dream of leaving, now that I have a good reason to go, the thought of being alone terrifies me :/ Help?