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I have already met my soulmate who i can never be together with and we aren't in contact anymore. He helped me and i helped him and our roles in each other's lives are over. So i don't have to worry about "the one"
The biggest deal breaker in a relationship for me is cheating and i have always advised a break up if your SO cheats. Cheating is the same reason why i am scared to be in a relationship too. It seems that many people here and irl supports cheating too. I had a guy tell me he will pour sulphuric acid on to my face because i asked a girl to break up with her cheating boyfriend. I know a female user here who everyone compliments on how she's such a submissive good girlfriend while she's flirting and sexting her guy friend. Even some of my friends in committed relations talk about new crushes and flirting with hot losers.(They say it's for fun)
Whenever i express my hatred towards cheating, people ask "Did you get cheated on or something?". Obviously i did not. But i feel like what they're saying is i don't have the right to be upset about cheating.
Anyway i got a player guy who have always wanted to "date" me since i am not easy and i am 99.9% sure he will cheat. So if i date him and when he cheats, i may finally be able to get rid of my fear. Once i become immune, i believe that i won't be always thinking if my future SO (someone i love) is cheating and even if he is, I would be used to it.
You would feel like i am being a hypocrite rn so i will stop expressing my anger towards cheating and such questions from this moment onwards. And yes i am alright being a miserable girl who would probably be pitied on (Ik i need help🤷‍♀️).

When my boyfriend and I started dating I asked him how many girlfriends he had before me. His answer was 1. Later I found out there was someone else. When I asked him how many girls he kissed he told me 5. I feel that its important to know your partners past because that way no one can say shit to you that you dont already know. 2days ago I found out he had so many more gfs and claimed yo not remember any of them which is bullshit. He responded by asking if I remembered every boyfriend or all the people I kissed.. which I do actually. He got more upset for me and said any person would think I am overreacting. But he never ever wants to speak about them or anyone in his past and when he does it is ow clear that he lied/lies about them. DO I HAVE A RIGHT TO FEEL HURT HERE? I dont even believe him about how many women he has slept with either. So how can I trust him when he has been lying to me for 8 years. He says everything before me doesn't matter.. but to me it does. WHAT DOÈS ALL OF THIS SAY ABOUT HIM. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME...