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I am not getting the benefits of being an adult. Just about all my peers are married, many with kids. Meanwhile, I never even had a real girlfriend. People are moving on in life while I am not progressing. I also still live at home under my mother's wing. I am hardly getting by. I have bills now and people have higher expectations of me. I haven't had sex in 8 years since I lost my virginity. Life sucks.

So we're both 17, very close friend, she is very shy, we go home together almost every day, now she wants me come with her in the mornings too cuz we get in the same bus.

So, when we first met 3 years ago, she used to touch my shoulder every time she told me something, pulled my backpack to let me know she was there. She also fell on me by accident quite a lot. We were awkward at that stage and she once talked about exs to let me know she never dated, then asked if sb in my old class was my girlfriend (she wasn't). She also tried taking a selfie of us just as she said she doesn't have enough storage and hugged me when I was down. She also threw a surprise party on my bday.

One year passed. We could now talk about anything. This time, she was more confident and also shared more info about herself. She stopped bumping into me, pulling my backpack. Now, she was twirling her hair or playing with her straps when she saw me. She also pretended not to see me when walking close to me but slowed down a lot until I reached her to go: "Oh, hi!". She got me an eclair for my bday.

Yet another year went by. She is always very interested in my well being, always over-apologizing. She once did something bad after I helped her and went 2 hours over her bedtime texting to make sure everything was ok. After I said that I was happy to have spent the day with her and that life is about choosing what makes you happy, she texted "If life is about choices", "You chose well 🙃".

She is curious about my past. When she sits next to me, her legs are crossed, one of them towards me, wiggling it. Her head on her arm resting on that leg. When we're together, we're close enough for our hands to touch and she always compliments me saying "You're very smart" or "You're really mature compared to me". Recently, she got all hyped up (blushing, asking if she can tell her family, smiling a lot) when I told her about sb in love thinking it was me to then go nothing u can do when I told her it's a friend.

I met my girlfriend on an app. After 2 dates, she told me she just wanted to be friends. I told her I was down, but if she was just trying to let me down gently, she didn’t actually have to be my friend. She said she actually wanted to be friends, so friends we were, hanging out etc. A little over a year later, she started getting flirty, holding my arm, long hugs etc, so I asked her what was up. She said she developed feelings and was wondering if I wanted to give dating another shot. I almost passed on that LOL. But here we are. Anyone else have a similar story?