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Ight so I’m part of the “boys” to an extent. Yk the one girl the boys always got around whenever they hang out? That’s me. Anytime I party it’s with the homies.
I started catching feelings for this one dude in the squad but when we were both single we were close buddies and he would tell me “BAS” (females ain’t shit) and I’d tell him the same thing back but male version.
Anytime he makes a joke, I’m always the first person he looks to to see if I found the joke funny. Whenever we party at my house we always end up falling asleep side by side (more like my back against his chest), bodies pressed up against each other. He got a girl, moved in with her, been with her for a good 2 years now.
It’s been a minute since I last saw him. I recently just threw a party and invited all the homies (obviously him and his girl included, his girl denied he didn’t) I ended up getting way too shitfaced and falling asleep early. When I went down in the morning I accidentally took this dude’s seat on the sofa so he told me to move to the right so he can sit where I was sitting. These two seats were the only connected seats on all our sitting spaces. There was a good 7 other seats he could've chosen. When he sat next to me we shared covers and he’d have a part of his body leaning on me. Still making eye contact with me first anytime he throws a joke. Always cheesin my way. Anytime I would compliment him he’d stare dead in my eyes and give me the cutest shy smile.
Maybe he’s just friendly like that? He never shot his shot when he was single even tho I would always hint at him to. We were the oh they would be such a cute couple kinda friends but I don’t know if he ever saw me like that. He has a whole girl waiting for him at home. Does this dude feel sumn for me or am I tripping?

So I went on my first date since my ex and ontop of that there's a pandemic going on. The guy and I had a few disagreements before we met up but we worked it out. I am and was really excited and nervous, we did meet briefly a couple times before but it wasn't proper it was literally 5 minutes each time before we officially met face to face. Things did get carried away and overall i was just worried about that and nothing else.

During the date while we were doing things in the car, we were in an area where a lot of people could see and he was doing certain things that could be more in private and felt shy/nervous when those things were happening. i was enjoying it but also not in the moment and I don't know if it was just anxiety/nerves. Usually when im driving home from a date im usually confused and/or crying and with this one i wasn't confused or crying just worried about that one thing which we talked about. he's a good guy and we have a lot of similarities and he's the kind of guy I've been looking for.

by the way he did tell me if anything i think he did is uncomfortable to let him know and i was a little vocal about it but not too vocal about it.