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i have been bullied all of my life by girls and guys I've been beat down and honestly it helped build me and make me resilient etc. I don't want to go any further into that aspect but I've focused on myself and at a young age I've been able to become very successful, I've focused on my hobbies, and pretty much have become totally happy with my life and accomplished a lot, still no girl ever came or showed interest in me even after focusing on myself and becoming successful and now I feel loneliness starting to take over my life, I know you'll say continue focusing on your hobbies or rejection is a part of the process but the same thing was said to me years ago, and before you know it I will be 30 and then 40, in public I smile am healthy and clean, in physically good shape, I make small talk but it just seems like I am not dating material to girls I even tried online dating and girls out of the blue have blocked me or ignored me after they probably catch on to me being inexperienced, what made me stop looking for a girl was this girl who I thought really liked me, we had arranged for dinner but she never showed up and I was left there... I don't want to talk about what else happened because it's too painful but I just want to know, even though im a genuine and interesting person, will girls see the fact that I have no relationship experience in my mid 20s as a turn off or the fact that I'm a virgin put them off from me, I just honestly want to know because it is already hard as it is and now I have to prove myself even more as to why I have never had a girlfriend, I always hear be yourself and I have focused on myself but it seems like I will be judged from this and I'm thinking about actually giving up on finding a girlfriend all together, I think of all the girls who will think I'm a weirdo or a freak that I have never held a girls hand... I have no family either and I don't want to go in depth there either, so tell me, honestly, is it weird, I can take criticism?