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Met this girl (24) online who moved to my city 2 years ago for work and things moved fast. One 3 hour dinner at a restaurant & I got the impression that she was a complete "goody two shoes." We had so many values in common... so I thought :/
2nd date she invited me over and we slept together, which caught me off guard. She initiated everything, but I went with it b/c it felt special. I didn't finish and she said "I'm sorry I'm not very good at this" which got me thinking she had not been with many people.
2 wks later we were in a relationship & the only thing I knew about her past was her one and only 9 month relationship & some dating that didn't work out. A week later at 11:30pm she gets a missed call & text from a guy saying "Hey, I miss you." She explained it was a guy she dated earlier in the year. No big deal she didn't even reply.

A week ago and a text form her ex for a valid reason created another awkward situation, which led to me asking dangerous questions. How old she was when she lost her virginity & how many guys she had slept with? I didn't think I would get unsavory answers, but I did.

She lost her V at 20/21 (not a big deal), told me I was the 8th guy she had slept with & the last guy was 4/5 months before me. With her only being 24 & a 9 month relationship in there I did the math. From the time she broke up with her ex there was an 18 month period where she slept with 6 guys. Very unsavory info, but it gets worse... 2 of them were one night stands where she invited the guys over to her apmt the very first time, the other 4 she slept with after only 2-4 dates and one turned into a friends with benefits situation for 2 weeks :/

We have already BOTH fallen for each other hard and I'm devastated. She feels AWFUL, said she was lonely & admits the mistakes & how stupid she was. I feel like she was only after sex, had no respect for herself, didn't learn from the mistakes & am having a hard time seeing her as the same person I thought she was.

Skull and Bones homages themselves as being called by 3 other names: The Brotherhood of Death, The Order and Order 322. This organization appears to have Satanists roots and of a theistic variety. This organization was formed in 1832 at Yale University in New Haven, Connecticut.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Skull_and_Bones

Former president George Bush Senior, was a member of this special secret society. George Bush actually played college baseball at Yale in 1947 and 1948 and led them to the National Championship game both years but they lost both times.

http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/False%20Religions/Wicca%20&%20Witchcraft/skull_and_bones_exposed.htm

Here is a picture of their organization:

What are your thoughts on Skull and Bones being Satanic and about evil or death? Is it reasonable and does it compare to the atheistic religions of The Church of Satan and The Satanic Temple?

My wife has had sex with 2 men before me. I lost my virginity to her.

Since the start I’ve always felt repulsed at the thought that other men have put their penises up her vagina. It affects my intimacy with her sometimes.

I don’t know. I love her and wish she was only mine. It sucks. I wish people were willing to wait for something special these days.