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I met him half year ago from a dating app.
We hanged out Several times (mainly go hiking /dinner ) and then he confessed on our third date but I refused. I thought it’s too early , the feeling wasn’t there yet and he’s only 2years older than me I felt like I need someone mature and stable.

After refusing him , he started distance himself from me. I blocked him. ( I know it’s weird but that’s what I did to respond)

I unblocked him last month and we began to chat but yea it’s unlike how we used to.
Then recently we had sex.
The feeling has became stronger and I really like him.
I know I’m also not ready for a relationship (so does he) I’m okay to be his friends with benefits.
The thing is he distanced himself from me again.
The last time we met he told me it’s hard to like and love me because There’s so much responsibilities and things he can’t control (as I planned to work abroad after 1year ) he asked me why did I blocked him and how bad he felt when things didn’t go the way he thought.
he said he was optimistic half year ago when he first met me now he realized there’s a lot of things he can’t do because he’s poor he can’t offer. I told him not to worry too much I didn’t ask for anything , we’re ok to keep relationship like this. He said he doesn’t worth spending time on he said he’s not handsome , poor and so.

What really hurted me is he didn’t show up on my birthday as we promised. He said he has to work and even tried to act like he forgot my birthday.

I want him back but I feel like everything he did is pushing me away.
We stopped talking to each other for a week and I recently posted somethings that might make him thought I was seeing someone. I don’t want him to leave. What should I do?

I work as bar staff at a restaurant and my co worker who’s the same age as me (early/mid 20s) is also one of my supervisors. He has a girlfriend he lives and bought dog together and all that. Despite that he’s still asked me some very questionable questions or said strange things like asking if I enjoy being single, guessing how many people I’ve slept with, saying he can guess what my type is, saying he enjoys being in a relationship despite admitting to having been a manwhore and sleeping with 50+ girls before girlfriend. He’s asked me to rate him out of 10, so I asked back about me and he said 8.

I though some of these interactions was just the work environment I was in and that he’s an incredibly social person but today he said he could guess what colour underwear I was wearing, saying red (wrong), I asked the other girls and they said he’s never asked them that before. He does like to wind me up all the time and see me get annoyed and likes to joke that I have a crush on him just because I said my type is Latin looking, dark hair & eyes, thick dark brows and that. I don’t feel that way towards him and I wouldn’t entertain it in that way if he tried anything. He’s not “physical” but he likes to steal pens and my phone from my butt pocket all the time. Reminds me a bit like a little kiddo who has a crush, but I’m so confused if he’s just being friendly or actually likes me? He does enjoy making me laugh as he’s quite funny, but I don't know what to think of it as we’ll talk pretty openly about sex life and his and his girlfriend sex life even? (Which doesn’t make me feel uncomfortable, it’s just kind of unusual).