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Ex. you see a knife, and you think about cutting yourself or killing yourself.

And... how do you overcome the thoughts?

For a long time I was hung up on one particular ex. I thought she was the one who got away and it was completely my fault the relationship ended. But only a few months ago I found out she had cheated on me right before she broke up with me.

At the time i thought she just came to end of the rope with her patience w/ me. Although I saw the end coming the way she acted afterwards (we had to stay in contact for a few reasons) was next level nasty. I was hung up for a very long time on some of nasty things she said.

But as it turns out she was a cheating whore and needed to do mental gymnastics to self justify her bullshit.

Truth is if she just would of confessed to me then I would of moved on much faster. I would of been pissed but it would of helped see her in a different light.

Ironically I purposely acted semi douchey (didn’t cheat though) towards of the end of the relationship because I too didn’t want a relationship. However she was deeply in love and I knew cutting it off when she saw me as some sort of God send ideal would devastate her. I couldn’t get myself to do that.

I learned a hard lesson not to trust anyone after that. But seriously it’s probably better to tell someone the ugly truth. She was too much of a cowardly selfish piece of shit to do that.