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So a girl I've know for a few years came back into my life in the summer, we hung out things happened and we were on the verge of being in a relationship... then the shit hit fan, thing were said & done (more so on her part) and some ill feelings were shared. She did a lot of things that upset me but she did something completely unexceptable when a friend of mine passed away and she showed no sympathy...

I don't feel like sharing the whole story (I already have numerous times) but I erased her number and deleted her from social media because I felt insulted and that she wasn't going to apologize for any of the things she has done... but I really wish she would have so I could let this go & stop being so angry about everything that happened.

It's been almost 2 years since I met her my 1st year in college. We became really close that first year to the point we considered each other best friends. I eventually developed feelings for her and at the beginning of my sophomore year I decided to tell her how I felt. She was sincerely apologetic as she ended up rejecting me claiming she didn't want a relationship at the time. She was crushed after a 4 year relationship in high school and didn't want something serious unless it led to marriage. She didn't have that "initial attraction" for me but claimed she did indeed develop feelings for me over the year. She even said "if you could wait... no I couldn't ask you to wait for me, that's unfair."

Thankfully we remained best friends after that conversation. We would have serious fights here and there but we kept making up and continue to develop a stronger friendship. In my head I kept running with the idea that if I'm patient she'll eventually be mine.

However, we drifted apart the summer of sophomore year as she started focusing on/prioritizing other friends which I couldn't stand it. I questioned if I should have someone like this in my life - someone I have very strong feelings for but won't ever end up with...

More of the same happened at the beginning of junior year until recently... Over the past 2 months or so we suddenly had a "spark" and our friendship/relationship is the strongest it's ever been. We started sharing all of our secrets/desires with each other again. Conversation subjects are more about our futures, families, kids, etc. Whenever we drink/go out we're the closest/touchiest we've ever been with each other.

The issue is... I feel like I'm setting myself up for pain. I can't imagine being with anyone else but her and I don't know if she feels the same. We're from different cultures/religions so that might be a factor (she's pretty religious) but she claims she's open minded. Something keeps telling me that she's the one... and I should wait