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i can be really shy on days when i feel insecure, i love to laugh & smile but when i don't feel good in my own skin you will noise it, does not matter if your an boy or not if we are good friends and we don't talk much i will literally keep question our friendship like an lost puppy, i probably take most jokes you make a bit too serious, i am not good at lying because my face tells you the truth even when dont like you to see it unless i feel hurt by you.. the i will make it hard to see my emotions and but still push you a bit to find out with is wrong me if you don't sense it, i love cute stuff like anime but i also love soo much, i have times when i feel super sad and then super happy, you would scare me if you left my life i already got attached to you , i love action movies stuff and superhero stuff like the marvel movies.. but i also like girls stuff like dresses and fashion & nail art but i wear make up only some times, i can make childish jokes and acted childish at times,

My heart would probably be stolen by a guy who is accepts me for who i am on the inside but still finds me attractive enough to compliment me out of the blue but from time to time but sky rockets because of the chemistry we have.
This always go's for my great friends and bff's i am always there for them and they are there for me and we dont have secrets...
i can't make a promise regarding time because i am often late.

The ones I am friends with I gave taken it upon myself to friend request and introduce myself and become FB friends with. My problem is suddenly he is commenting to pictures of beautiful women who he has not talked to since school. We are 50 years old. And I know he has private messaged them telling them how beautiful and smart they are and how he wanted them to know he was thinking about them. We had a problem with this issue over a year ago. He would get a message from an ex once a month or so and would tell me if I asked that he doesn't like to hurt anyone feelings and it was just Hi how are you doing chit chat. One eveneing we were laying in bed looking at facebook and he handed me his phone to read something and when I went scroll the page changed and it was his his pm list and I saw that she had messaged him "I miss you too". I was crushed because that was not chit chat. I had told him from the begining I did not like him talking to him. Long back story but she only had a relationship with him for money. Then ran of and married her exfiance two weeks after sleeping with him. And was continually telling him she made a mistake and she loved him when he was starting to have a relationship with me. That night things blew up and there was a lot if silence and tears from me after our screaming match. He told me when I moved up he had no secrets from me he was an open book. Left his facebook signed in and gave me his passwords for online. Ibread the messages that were not deleted. Ther were only 3. She said ahe was thinking about him a lot. He replied he was thinking about her too and he "I miss my squishy". To which she replied I miss you too. My heart was crushed we talked at length on the third day. He said he meant he missed the people he had worked with. He also deleted her and blocked her from his phone. He wanted to delete his facebook because he didn't want me telling him who he can and cannot talk too. I told him that was not my intention and ibdid not want