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So, I turn 18 in two weeks and I barely have any friends. It's been like this for seven- eight years. Kids in my age group cut me off after a few months, people online stop talking to me after a few months, I feel like I'm easily forgotten by people and people are quick to ditch me. Even when I make friends I typically think of the date or deadline they will stop talking to me and cut me out their life. For example I made a friend in my neighborhood who was supposed to go to my school, he told me we'd be friends but I thought that once he started making friends at our high school he'd probably ditch me and end our friendship to be with other people there. :/ we had a great time together and I always wondered if my feelings were normal or just depressing. I don't expect people to even like me anymore. Sometimes kids I was friends or talked with would disappear from school and never show up again. I can't see myself making new friends, having a boyfriend, having a normal life. I imagined myself getting pregnant then thinking of the guy abandoning me and me being a single mother. In 20 years I see myself being completely alone with no friends, little to no family, I'll be living alone and living my life as a loner with a boring, mediocre career that only pays enough for me live in a small one bedroom apartment with barely any social interaction with people being at home all day Watching YouTube videos I don't even see myself traveling or dating. I don't even see myself really happy... Is this normal? I see myself dying old, alone and thinking that it'll be a week or two before anyone notices that I'm gone. Is this normal or I'm I depressed?

my boyfriend and i met on an online game, and we are dating irl. my boyfriend is a really internet person with friends on the internet. 1 month into our relationship, he got to know this girl on the same game we met. they became friends and started calling everyday. he neglected our relationship, ignored my messages, and lied to me about things. he also exchanged texts with the girl like "i love you", "i miss you" dirty jokes etc. when i found out i got REALLY angry and wanted to break up with him. he said he is really sorry and the reason he did it is because i was busy and he missed me a lot so he had to keep himself busy, which i think is bs. he promised to stop exchanging texts like i love you and to think about my feelings more. he broke off all contact with her ONLY after i told him to.
after this, for 6 months he did not do any fishy stuff, did not get too close to girls. however, a few weeks ago, he did the same mistake again. this time his old friend (internet) came back after a long time. and they called every single day for more than 5 hours a day. once he woke up, when she's getting ready for school, literally whenever they can. this only stopped when i confronted him. i got really angry again and his reason is, his old friend for years came back after a long time so they wanted to catch up and he got carried away and did not consider my feelings enough.
now he's telling me to forgive him again, and that he will change this time. but the first time he said he will change, it seemed so real too. i thought he did. but he didn't and did the same thing to hurt me again. tbh, he's a nice boyfriend. he showed me his messages with these girls which meant he's honest. everyday after my school, he takes a bus for 1 hour to fetch me home just for 20 minutes and goes home for 1 hour again. he's nice, just not too smart. should i forgive him again? how do i let myself trust him again. i really do not want this relationship to end but i dont know if he will really change this time.

some background info, we've been dating for 8 months and he's a really good boyfriend tho we fight quite abit. he does little things for me like bringing me home from school whenever he can, helping me with school work etc. however he has this habit of talking back which causes us to fight a lot.

so recently my mum found out that my dad has an affair but she's not divorcing and im REALLY done with this family because she's always blaming me for everything my dad does and its making me hurt. i want to get out of this house so i was thinking of asking a teacher for help. i texted my boyfriend "should i ask someone for help", and then he went on about "i read online that the legal age to get out of your house is 18 though". this got me pissed because its like i FINALLY thought of a solution but then he simply pushed it down so we fought over the text. i told him how i feel hurt because he's breaking all the hopes i have. and he went on rebutting and talking back about how he's just stating what he read online and he wants me to know etc. i think i had an emotional breakdown bcos life has been really hard for me PLUS what he's doing so i started crying and i texted him "THANKS NOW IM CRYING NOW STOP" but he wouldn't STOP he just kept going on explaining himself and said "i won't stop because you dont understand what im saying". but i was already in tears and he wouldn't spare me. i called him and started screaming and crying at him, telling him to stop. it was then when he realized what he caused and he apologized and said its his fault for not stopping. i said i want a break up because this time he hurt me too much. he kept apologizing and saying he won't do it again and now he knows how hurt i am. but he only knew after i had to call him and scream in his face. im already troubled with family problems and as a boyfriend, he made it worse instead of better. on the other hand, he's a great boyfriend and i can't imagine life without him. it will be so different, so less happy. what should i do.