Was it my fault that I isolated myself cuz I was depress from having a hard life?

my parents were poor refugees with no education and did not speak English. and when i was 12 my dad became disabled from a stroke and became physically and mentally handicapped and bedridden. i missed out on friendship, relationship and socializing. i dont think anyone wants to be around a depress person anyways with how negative their thoughts are.
Was it my fault that I isolated myself cuz I was depress from having a hard life?
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