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Hey guys, thanks for the help. here's a list of things he does
-makes fun of other girls, actually insults them
Says to girls things like "you have man hands," "youre a bad singer," etc. (Doesnt mean it but says it a lot.) He can be brutal sometimes too, does it constantly.

-Annoys girls
Messes up their hair, sprays them with water, etc. Does this constantly to every girl in and out of class

-posts a lot of things players would
Posts of squads, girls, stuff like that

This is how he acts with me:
- is nice to me
He never insults me, actually compliments me (says im the best actress in class, im nicer, im an awesome singer, etc.)

-doesnt want to annoy me
For example, when he was spraying some girls he almost sprayed me and my friend and he said "oh wow im so sorry chelsea!" And meant it. He will tease me, like when i needed to get my shoes he kicked them around and said "whoops im sorry i dont know whats happening i can't control it"

- he touches me
He always will tap my head, my back or arms when passing me in the halls. When we sat in class our feet kept touching and he just kept it there.

-eyes and paying attention
I've caught him subtly looking me up and down, when i talk his eyes are glued on me. He even was talking to his friend then once i started talking to a group of people he completely turned to me and ignored his friend.

-He treats me so much better than all of the other girls, when i asked him why he said "its because you're actually nice to me." Thingis, I actually am a bit meaner than all the other girls. Ill "roast" him, and he won't even insult me back. All he says is "well ill just make you sound bad on talent show day" because he does the sound for it, he doesn't mean it though. If any other girl insults him, he willinsult her back

Yesterday:
I roasted him and he said "well okay Im mad at you now." Later on he went from sitting beside one girl to shuffling over to me and said "im sitting beside chelsea" then sto

Okay so me and this girl have been friends for like 7 years. I am a female as well. We've always had an eye for eachother since gradeschool but we never took it to the next level until 2 years ago. We hook up a lot and it is always so passionate. We cuddle also We tell eachother all types of things during sex, for example: I love you so much, you're my girlfriend, you're the only woman i want... you know stuff like that. lol We also cuddle from time to time. Now i have recently revealed to her that i am in love with her. she told me she wasn't looking to date a female, and that wasn't where her heart was. I took note of that, but we STILL have sex and tell each other the same things. We argue like a couple aswell and she always brings up relationship matters, even if thats not what the initial argument is about. for example, she gets upset if i hang out with other girls. and she always accuses me of messing around with other women eventhough thats not true.
We dont usually get upset about dating guys though (well she doesnt). Deep inside i hate her dating anyone although i never admit it. I think she knows that but i feel like she rubs the other guys in my face, like inviting me over when she is with them or telling me how much she likes a guy (note that this woman knows that i am in love with her). I try to support her because i realize we will never be official, so I take on the friend role a lot of times and just support what she wants.
I feel like im putting her happieness before my own. I guess i just want to know if anyone can help decode what this girl is really feeling. why would she bring other love intrests around me when she knows how i feel about her? Should i let these feelings go or should i stick around hoping maybe she'll have a change of heart?