Is it okay that I always say something very opposite to the thing I actually wanna say?

So for last one month I am talking to a guy. We have met few times and I quite enjoy his company. In short I really like him. But whenever we talk I always make him friend zoned though I don't want that. I have said so many things that look like I am not actually interested in him. For last few days he also trying to be my friend only also looking for a guy for me. I don't know why I am so stupid but these things really upsetting me
Is it okay that I always say something very opposite to the thing I actually wanna say?
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