I ruined my life and dreams?

At age 32, because of a bad childhood, for it, i got out at 24 but i completer was devasted, i grew to learn i came from a toxic housrhold, bad boyfriends and friends, and lost jobs, i couldnt get over the sadness. Was looking for love, posted things on the internet that will never be deleted, etc. Now what? I want to create me dream life but im too scared the past will haunt me.

I ruined my life and dreams?
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