What does my girlfriend see in me when I struggle with my appearance?

[Anonymous]

I am ugly under weight guy, skinny with bad bone structure and with low self-esteem.
(But confident enough to be in a group of girls and have good conversations)
I have been rejected without asking, with asking, some girls straight up insulting me, and it was too harsh for me.
I completely gave up, got lonely, disconnected from every girl just me and just went to charity or events only.
Until I met her on a friend's app.
She found me cute, how?
A guy in his late 20's, dressed up like he is a kid, with bad hair, going bald.
How does she find me cute?
I am trying to improve -yes, she is the first person who actually liked me in my whole life of 27.
Even my own mum hated me, she burned my hands.(Yes she was mentally disturbed as she got thyroid issues after giving birth to me, I don't blame her. But that just showed me that I am worthless)
I am thankful for that.
I have asked her, why but never got any answer, we have been going out for 2 months now, she is employed, I am not.
She is feeding me when we go out.
(I used to be employed in my own country but as I moved away for masters, I came to my current country ofcourse on student visa and loan)
I am going to say out loud I hated myself so much that I felt I was nothing. But how she came in and changed all this.

[ohvanillalattegal]

Because you’re deserving of love and it’s okay to allow yourself to be love for just being you. And take your time to learn to love yourself at the same time. Don’t push her away.

[slatyb]

Seek professional counseling. You were abused, it's not surprising you have a poor self-image. I finally did when I was divorcing in my thirties. Don't wait that long.

[jahaims]

Stop living in self pity. That is weak

[Anonymous]

How does she look

[Asker]

She is pretty,
Cute and cuddly, dresses so nicely.
Her eyes are very dark brown almost black.
She is 4. Something I am 5'7
So perfect height for me to rest my arms on her head.
Hard for me to kiss but I make it happen whenever possible.
She lives 22 miles away and she does all the travelling to me. For my company, I cook for her some good food. And I just love it (sometimes even if she doesn't like it, she will eat it)
She also cooks for me, she made a chicken dish for me.
I was sick last this week and she brought a tiffin for me.
I do this little things, like give her a tight hug and she likes it, massage her feet cause she complains about it too much as her job is too much sometimes.

[Asker]

I think I am in love more than she is.
But I don't care cause I feel something for the first time in my life which is not bad.

[Opinion Owner]

You sound pretty tall compared to her. So why do u feel unattractive