Questions: Family & Friends

I have been clean for 11 years now I smoke weed and occasionally drink. It was a hard rough ugly battle to get sober. The day after tomorrow It will be 12 years I've been clean. My bottom was waking up to my sister in my parents bedroom freaked out because of the way I was acting. That was the day I knew I needed to change or I would eventually drive my family away. I use n\a meetings to help keep me sober but what really helps me is seeing what I looked like when I was fucked up all the time. Not a pretty sight. My question is kind of a 3 part question. What is your experience with addiction? If you decided to get sober, what was it that pushed you to make that decision? What keeps you sober?

Before you call me a heartless parent let me explain. In Singapore raising a child is no longer meant for people with low or average income, as for me my salary is less than $1.5k, if I really want one child I had to marry a man who earns around $3k per month. That’s because I also have to pay $1k to hire a nanny to take care of the baby, if I were to marry a guy with the same income as me and have a child basically our lives will be very miserable because there won’t be enough money to raise a child. I also wouldn’t want my parents to raise my child since they already had a hard time raising me due to financial issues, no way will I want my parents to go through that again.