How to deal with being average-looking?

Royalxx3
I'm really insecure. I asked my best friend to be honest on if I'm average or ugly. She said I was a "solid 7/10". Figures because I'm always in the middle or edge of things such as constantly getting C's in school lol. I asked someone what a 7 for rate means to them and they responded "okayish like not special". Ever since then, I've been realizing the truth of myself and why guys never like or notice me.

Throughout my life, I've been obsessed with beauty. I find everything beautiful. I love the idea of being beautiful. My self-esteem decreased and I kept wondering how I looked to others. I would ask artists to draw me and some, unsatisfied. I don't know what's wrong with me. I hate how bland I am even with makeup. I was always given "cute" even by my ex who said my best friend was beautiful.
How to deal with being average-looking?
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