Girls, what do you think about a guy, who cums in his pants?

Varik
Well, yesterday happened something that is really uncomfortable for me. Since i can share this in the Internet without to expose who i am, i hope to get some opinions and maybe advise here. I maybe should mention that i had no experience with girls before.

There is this girl from my school that i have a crush on. Recently we started to hang around more often together with other friends of us. Yesterday we were at her home and she casually started flirting with me, telling me i am cute, carresing my hair and while the others were in the next room i tried to kiss her. That was sucessful, so we made out on the couch and i got really hard.
Everything went fine until here but then she got on top on me, sitting on my lap and well... started to move a lot with her hips. After a while of that, i just lost it and couldn´t hold it back anymore. It seems she noticed because she stopped and looked down on my lap. I did wear a grey sweatpants and there was clearly a big dark spot visibly!
She started laughing a bit but didn´t said anything, i was so embarrassed. I quickly excused myself and went home, because i didn´t wanted to let one of the others see that.

I feel so ashamed and don´t know how i should react to her the next time i see her. What does she think about me now? I am pathetic? Have i ruined my chance with her now? What would you think if you were in her position?
Girls, what do you think about a guy, who cums in his pants?
4 Opinion