Why must guys stare at me?

It annoys me because I literally have PTSD from being bullied by guys in the past because I'm not the l4tina type or have straight hair so naturally I show bitterness sometimes towards all guys or at least the type that treats bl4ck women poorly. I'm not so "ugly" that people would call me it but knowing how majority guys have one standard of beauty I get annoyed when guys stare at me and I noticed the ones that treat me the worst are hispanic or Mexican guys especially the younger they are. I even had ones at my old job get aggressive with me physically or give me a look of pure hatred and their women are just as mean to me. I heard their race as a whole dislikes my race either way I just want to know why are some of these guys staring at me? It's either they are silently making fun of me and judging me like I'm some kind of zoo exhibit or I don't know. I generally can't imagine them thinking anything positive because I been bullied, harrassed, and stalked by them ever since I been in California and plus I don't know why if they don't find me attractive (which who cares) then why are they even staring at me and talking about how "ugly" I am or whatever other mysgontic (forgive my spelling and grammar) thing they are thinking. I just wish sometimes I could be born as a guy because I doubt women are as mean as these men are

Why must guys stare at me?
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