Questions: Marriage & Weddings

I’m the last young child left in family. All my step siblings are older than me and brothers wife’s 4 sisters all are married now. The youngest sister 28 got proposed to this week. I’m not 28 yet but I worry by that age I won’t be married at all. I feel it’s not in my destiny to be married never. I feel like a loser as everyone in family is stuck up now rich perfect life with husband and im loser little girl. That show I feel. I have a boyfriend & live alone in an apartment. But to me she 25 is like a grown women I want be proposed to start living with a guy now fast. I use a horoscope app and they have said since last years it was seen 2023 I’ll be pregnant. So I’ll just have baby not married (yet)? I know many girls marry til after they have baby. I don't know y god want everything backwards for me and he choose only them be happy and he wants me unhappy in life. I feel lonely I’m a black sheep I can’t show off to anyone my beaitful apartment & how happy I am with boyfriend, they only care of their life. To the point I’m ignored and they only talk of their life so I’m distant from all of them forevever. And try live my own life alone with boyfriend. 😞 I did marry when I was young but it was a guy that used me & since he was tall & I was extremely short had baby face, he treated me like I’m a stupid little girl & not an adult women. I’m divorced soon this year, still with same boyfriend. But boyfriend and I are short so he treat me like a women never is judging me. And that guy is now with a. Super tall women like him. So for sure that guy wasn’t for me and boyfriend maybe is for me.

Personally for me I'd prefer to have a small wedding with just close family and friends.