What keeps you going?

[NostalgiaSenpi]

I'm currently thirty two, having recently been through cancer surgery and feel like living hasn't been worth it. I've done everything I've wanted to do that I'm capable of doing and don't see the possibility of any further developments such as a wife and children, or international travel without a long time of planning. So much changes in a year and even if I do find someone willing to go the distance, I wouldn't want to leave her a widow. I also don't see the point in getting a 'real id', a passport, saving for the trip and going abroad if I'm just going to drop dead soon enough or have some health problem pop up.

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1 y

I'm currently in remission from brain cancer. It's working so far. Going in for a check up today and I've just been thinking a lot about it lately.

[PrettyPriya]

Well, my family, husband and friends keep me going. The desire to be a mom one day is really driving me right now. I do not have the very real and serious issues that you have mentioned.

I am so sorry to hear of your health struggles. Obviously, I have no clue what sort of cancer you have and that is a private matter. Is there no treatments left for them to try? Have you exhausted all things medical at this point?

I work in healthcare. I would recommend, if you haven't already, going to a specialist in a big city for second and even third opinions. What one doctor might think is pointless another will try a treatment.

Again, I am so very sorry to hear of your illness. I cannot imagine being in your shoes. I think you just have to find even the simple things that you can enjoy and bring even a little happiness to your life, whether it be family and friends or something you enjoy doing. You don't need to travel to be a tourist. Be one in your own area and experience things you otherwise wouldn't think of right around you. Best of luck and prayers to you.

[NostalgiaSenpi]

Thank you. I'm currently in remission and am going for a check up today. It's just on my mind lately.

[PrettyPriya]

I can absolutely understand how that would be on your mind and weigh heavily. That is a relief to hear you are in remission. I do hope you get some good news today. Think positive.

[PrettyPriya]

Thanks for the MHO 🙂 Hope your consultation went well!

[Agape93]

Not much anymore. A vague sense of hope and a lack of a final trigger to set shit in motion.

[RolandCuthbert]

The point is hope dude. I mean, if you think about it, then no one has any reason to live. Here you are, but you are not any different from me or anyone else here. We all have no idea of when we are leaving this earth. So by your logic, we should just give up. But so many of us choose to go on.

That's because we have hope for a better day. We hope to find happiness or to bring happiness to others. What I would suggest is joining a Thanatophobia group. A group dedicated to the fear of death.

Because that's where you are. You are seeing hopelessness.

I lost both of my sisters at the end of 2021. They are no longer here. And it made me think what should I be doing with the time that is left to me. Can I help some people? Can I find some happiness? And why would I want to spend my last days, just being angry, in despair or hopeless?

In the end, it isn't even logical.

Good luck sir. May the Lord bring you health, happiness and healing.

[Juxtapose]

Anger!

I'm never going to let all the people who doubted me, all the people who tried to destroy me have their victory! I'm not going to let this world crush me, I'm going to stand up to the evils of this reality and let my light shine all the brighter.

Even in the face of hopeless oblivion which we all face eventually, I press on because it makes me too angry to think of giving up.

[ibodi]

I had done my wish before therefore there is no persistent idea for me as taism' thought. maybe in English as if Mr. big's going where the wind blows.

[Guy13]

Knowledge of eternity and living God as well as important people within my life circle. And, I generally try to enjoy life as a whole. Life has much to offer both in pleasure and pain.

[NachtjaegerSS]

Give yourself a break, let your body recovery and than move forward. You are still a young man. Focus on yourself to start than gradually expand your circle.

[Iron_Man]

One girl only my warrior girl