Questions

I have anxiety about my looks, and then I regularly notice women are either staring at me in general and when I make direct eye contact they smile. But I'm too scared to approach them because maybe it's because they think I look strange as I'm 191cm 6'3" tall and I feel my posture isn't the best... Would that be why they are staring?

Or the other bizarre thing I notice; is women young and old and I mean from approximately what I assume is 18+ y. o to 60 y. o staring at me, but not my face.. they stare at my crotch area.. as I can see them looking at me but not at my face initially, and if I catch them staring there they either go red and seem really embarrassed, with a few younger girls who were serving me forgetting to charge me for my purchases... And therefore seem really embarrassed and fumbling around... Or they will be staring down there and then when they realise I've noticed them staring they will look up and smile directly to my face or smile but go slightly red and embarrassed...

I'm so anxious and worried I'm some tall weird looking guy and that's why they are staring at me and my face or bizarrely at my Crotch area and getting embarrassed like they forgot what they were doing and bright red in the face, or slightly red and smiling directly at me...

I don't approach women anymore as i did a few times in my life and they acted like I had no right to be approaching them as I'm not good enough for them...

Instead a few of the times I've noticed women staring at my lower region and didn't get embarrassed but smiled, well they approached me and initiated the flirting...

What is going on with me... ?

Are they approving me because they pitty me... 😞

As I'm often told online that I'm "very unattractive" so a nice way to say I'm ugly, and I'm not their type... So why would they stare and approach me?

I feel so defeated and honestly think even looking for anyone that would be attracted to me is utterly useless 😔