Can you help this fucking idiot?

Anonymous
Firstly, I'm a fool, i take action before thinking and that shit ruins everything in my life. I like a boy, we are more than friends. we were in dating phase but it was all in private. his friends know about me and they've told me how much he likes me even his ex (s) and people he dated after that know about me. everyone close to knows me actually.
he did confess before, he asked me more than 5times but i wasn't ready for a relationship. so we were friends. his girlfriend cheated on him he was upset so we decided to hangout and after a week i caught feelings for him.
he knows I've got feelings for him. but he doesn't really want to commit rn. he started to makeout and all. and here's why I'm an idiot. he asked me to have seggs with him few times. i told him i wasn't ready and also we were nothing more than friends because he never want to commit. but days and days later we did that. now he's ignoring me or only texts me when he wants to makeout or something. he acts so different, distant from me. now I don't know what to do. i Know i messed up but i really love him and I can't move on.
Can you help this fucking idiot?
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