Is it bad I had a dream about my x on her death bed last night?

[Stoner710]

We broke up over 10 years ago but I still dream about her. I had a dream she was lying on her death bed and she asked for the one who truly loves her while she was in the hospital dying she tolled me she would always love me and I would always love her even when she is dying and asked me to raise her sons while I’m dream and RIL I haven’t been with her for a decade. I’ve been single since me and her broke up on high school since I made a promise that she will be the only one I would love I would never date anyone like her. Hence why I have my Four rules

no liberals oh Christians no kids I no fat chicks

she was a liberal Christian and fat with the kids at this point at least

[Guy13]

that's frightening. What does your current girl think? Does she even know?-Probably better that she does not!!! Forget I asked that-sorry...

[Stoner710]

I don’t have a current girlfriend because I haven’t had a girlfriend since her

[Stoner710]

You’re good by the way for asking

[Guy13]

Thanks... but I am sincerely interested in this dynamic...

[Stoner710]

So I am a leo loyal to a fault I was also conservatives Christian with a mix of game of thrones lord do the ring Chronicles of Narnia and anime Sense of Honor. With a little bit of The Godfather

So o fell In love and with that G. O. T LORT Skyrim anime sense of honor in my mind I’m still inlove with her. And as the nerd side of me I swore I would win her back no matter what.

Modern more rational side of me says that would never happen fantasy is not likely. And as someone the delves dungeon deep into ideology I come out understand the sad truth. Neither I embarrass one idea (god made the world or where all here by Radom chance.) and until I except one or the other my life is screwed. There is no in between (key word) in the United States

[Guy13]

And so the positive in your Life is...