Is there a transition demon?

I identify myself as a trans woman but I Don't wear women's clothing because I am too tall and masculine looking. I actually tried a couple of times and people think I am a woman. but I just want to be natural. I don't think anything wrong for me to be and look a man. I sound like a woman so everyone on the phone call me a mam if I contact customer service. I am ok with that. but sometimes the feelings are overwhelming. it's like I want to be a woman and go out and get attention whatsoever. I try to be a man but it's hard. today was that kind of day but then I convince myself that it's going to pass. and I felt ok. I am from Korea. If I am in Korea I don't feel this. maybe Korea is male centred country. men have more privilege than woman. I feel comfortable living as a man but here in America (Canada) I feel this urge to transition. is there a transition demon? I feel like something is really pulling me down.

Is there a transition demon?
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