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So in middle school my friend was a straight A student so she often got special treatment from the school. you know, money gifts and such. Guys would take her out and buy her things while me on the other hand I was a failing student. I had the lowest test grades In school despite going almost every day, and I had no friends resides her. People always commented on my friend. Telling me that my friend is pretty, she's smart and has a great personality. And I was her fat, ugly unlikeable friend. Hell, I had my friends ditch me to be with her/ favored her over me. For example her friends would only hang out with me if she was around, when she wasn't they told me they didn't want to talk to me at all or was just very rude/ unfriendly to me. I just smiled, to top that off she was much better looking then me. Skinnier, better hair, richer family, ( I've been told that kids from rich families are better then kids who come from poor families) no wonder people liked her so much and treated me so poorly compared to her. She had the whole package. But I didn't let that get in the way of our friendship. And stayed friends with her until she didn't want me around anymore. Being the ugly, inferior friend was not a fun experience at all. But hey, I got over it.

My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost 10 months. We hang out every day and he stays over night on weekends. We are both 17. A while ago he was having a hard time getting over this girl he liked but she didn't like him. She led him on telling him she lived him and he would always tell my sister he missed her. This was 3 months in. I thought about leaving him cause he obviously wanted her not me. She is the typical gorgeous skinny Italian girl. Flawless. Conpaired to me I am way overweight, uneven tone, not a nice body at all and don't even fit my clothes. I sometimes wonder if he is with me for just sex or rides places. This continued with this other girl. He denied it until I finally got on his phone when he was sleeping. There was a message to her telling her how gorgeous she was but I never got anything like that. I was so jealous. Then that day as well I found out his and hers last names were his phone password!!! I was soooo upset I just left. I gave him another chance. The next girl was when he told me he was hanging out with a few guys and girls at the same place I was all weekend... he almost kissed one of them which he probably did cause he doesn't like talking about it. This is the girl that I saw messages oh his phone last week saying he wished he would have kissed her. I was done then. But having extreme anxiety and depression doesn't help me with the fact that I can't lose him. What do I do? When I try and talk to him about it he gets really mad. There have also been various other things on snapchat of him just saying they are cute and pretty. I don't get those words anymore! I wish I did. I don't feel that he wants to be with me anymore... :( help.