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Hi. I turned 23 this year. I dont have any college degree. I dropped out about 2 years ago because i was unmotivated and i was not passionate at all of what i was studying for, but im getting older and time doesn't stop for anyone.

I can't keep waiting because the fact that i have wasted 5 years of my life for the mere fact that i dont know what i want, is getting more ridiculous and embarrassing each year. Lately i cannot stop thinking about going back to college. I have to choose a path this time because at least i know where i would be going. Last time i went to college i just chose a certain study but didn't know what it was for.

My mom is a nurse and have been telling me to study nursing. This is only because i keep telling her i dont know what i want. Years ago i’d just ignore her, but I've just been stuck and need to move forward, so i have started to actually think about being a nurse. It seems to pay enough. I dont have a kid, or any major bills i have to spend money on. So it seems good enough for me.

I have a lot on my mind. Like how hard it might be, the classes, the actual job, and im scared of going to college again, but i realize i have to try because the other option is staying where i have been my whole life and its draining the life out of me. My friends have graduated, moved places, getting real jobs, and im still the same as i was at 18.

I have a boyfriend (somehow) who loves me and is supportive of me. He made me realize I've just been making excuses to not go back. That im just scared of failing (typical). I was surprised he gave me a little tough love lol. I have nothing else going on in my life. I know some people dont need college to succeed but i know im not one of those people.

Am i right/wrong to just wanna pursue nursing for this reason? Im guessing even if i regret it, it won't be a bigger regret than staying where i am at right now. Right

When I went to High School there was this older kid (man) who used to strangle me and kneekick me daily. He had mental issues. And he would always have the same drink. He would put it in his mouth and then spit it on me. And evan till this day I can't touch that drink. I see it every day in the store. That was about 8 years ago. I noticed I was much more open to go out before it happen now I'm not. And a few months ago I saw him from a distance and I started breathing heavy... I dont know is it something I should work on? Or I just ignore it? I'm more scared of letting people in...

It's an extremely shameful situation I know...

EXTRA: this was from 6th-8th grade. He asked me on a date I said I couldnt that date and asked him to do it another time... things esculated. I know he had issues at home, he had severe ADHD and I was an easy target cause im tiny and already was bullied by others so who cares..

A part of me wanna see if I could buy the drink...

Also I live in a country where I couldnt filé a police report. We were both under 18 and best case he goes to prison for 1 month and I have a gang after me and I'd be resting deep now... so its not like US here.. that wasent an option. But there were many witnesses that knew what happen.

This guy!!! He’s moved on, married. Yet he still emails me. Claiming that I’m called him blocked. (Im not). I don’t have time for his mundane bs. Every time I answer; it’s a fight and he’s ignorant. Im a psychology major so I know what I’m doing. I try ignoring him, yet I get emails like this. I don't know what to do anymore. I’ve tried getting restraining orders, but we are in different states. Please any suggestions