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There’s this girl who I fell for about a year and half ago. I might be an idiot but she’s the most smart, funny, kind, and loving person I’ve ever met. We both had a dark moment in our life when we met and we grew so close together that we messaged each other so much like good morning and goodnight and knew each other so well. One day I wanted to ask her if we can become more then friends, she said no because of cultural differences but it’s different than you might imagine.. I also screwed up and I said “quit playin games with me” and I still to this day can’t forgive myself for that. fast forwarding about 5-7 months later we grew even closer, I tried again. I found out she was talking to someone else. I’m not the type of person who will never let a girl talk to other people, everyone has their own choices. I was definitely hurt and we stopped talking to each other for 5 months. 5 months pass by she messaged me saying : I missed you and you probably hate me. I replied back with I don’t hate anyone, I don’t hold grudges. I asked why she decided to message me after all this time, she said because she misses me. I honestly miss her too 🥺 but I can’t do another “friend zone” with her because she is the most perfect person in my eyes. But she can only offer a friendship. Should I move on, I’d hate to lose this person truthfully. But I don’t want to be depressed again when I fall in love with her again with her beautiful personality.