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This person (25F) and I (23M) have been talking. She works as a supervisor at my nearest grocery store where I live. During the many times we've seen each other very rarely will she smile or initiate a "hi" (but I'm not saying that doesn't totally exist). Most of the time I go out of my way to chat with her. I know some things about her via the answers she gave me to my questions. She's a Gemini, I'm a Capricorn. But that's pretty much the only thing I know personally about her. She didn't even ask about my last name, what ethnicity I am, or my phone number or social media info. (She knows very few things about me other than the fact that I used to work at Whole Foods and that I am now taking online school.) I recorded a few TikTok videos jokingly talking about how I met this girl and made some jokes about a particular, really cranky guy from a commercial that sells pillows. I told her jokingly that I was his godson, she said, "Oh yeah! I remember you!"

But lately, she's kinda been ghosting me, limiting to just short chit-chats. I don't think she's all that interested. She's likely lost all interest in me. Even today my aunt honked at me as I was JUST going to talk to this girl, but she didn't even notice me or the car honking.

I did ask if she's down for the gym or the movies, she said while she appreciates me asking her out, she cannot go out.

With that said, I gave her some flowers/roses on Mother's Day and she really appreciated it. But she didn't say anything when I hid a Valentine's Day card inside with some chocolates in a bag.

Sometimes I feel like an a—hole for not going out of my way to talk to her today. But few days ago I was exiting the store, she was just glancing at me for a second and didn't even do or say anything. I feel left out, excluded, psychologically burned out because of her betrayal. She acted so f—king nice to me.

Everyone I know always hates on and disrespects me, I don't know why, it's not like I do anything wrong but it's like I have this magical ability to make everyone hate me for no reason... For example IL jus be walking down the street and some car will honk out the window yelling wanker at me... or IL jus be sitting down minding my buisness playing a video game, and all of a sudden my brother gets mad at me and blames me for burning his pizza that I didn't even know he was cooking, claiming that 'i could have let him know"

And another example of this I was playing a video game called RuneScape just at the bank.. and some random person told me my shoes look gay.. and another time I was walking in school and some fat ginger kid walked passed saying "what you say about my mum?' even tho I said nothing.

And that's not all.. my mum always hates on me and disrespects me calling me a loser and stupid and stuff like this, and even on this website random people just insult me for no reason and I bet someone in the comments here will now.

I don't know why this is... I don't know why random people seem to hate me when they don't to others.. I see other people get treated nicely with respect but I always get hated on for in my opinion.. no reason... Why is this? Am I jus cursed?
Or is it because I'm ugly and everyone hates ugly people? I don't get it..

It's also very bad for my self esteem, I have low self esteem because of it and avoid everyone, I stay alone as much as possible since I think everyone hates me, it makes me feel like a worthless turd that everyone would rather I was dead.. very sad..