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I still almost get sick to my stomach thinking about it.

Back in 2020, I met this girl on a coding forum. We talked and really hit it off. She was around 18 and never even had a male friend before. She never had a boyfriend or a first love. She never even kissed a guy. She was homeschooled and grew up in a strict Catholic family. I was so excited.

We continued to talk for months, and I finally met her in person where she discovered I wasn't her type. I was too short in height for her preference. Plus, she wanted me to come off my medications completely, which I was hesitant to do.

Now, she is engaged to another guy about to get married in April of this year. I get sick to my stomach almost thinking about it. I still have dreams of her. He gets to be her first everything.

Do you think that was the one and only time I was to find a woman like that without a romantic past, even never having a male friend before?

I am 27 and never had a real girlfriend. I have frequent dreams of this girl I went on 1 date with. She was perfect and never even had a male friend before she met me. She rejected me on the first date. I am absolutely sick to my stomach to learn she is engaged to be married to this guy in April 2022.

I want to find another girl like her, one that has never had her first love or a boyfriend before. She was decently attractive too, and I hope to find another like her.

I want to be married by the end of 2022 or early 2023 at the latest with a girl where we are each other's first loves. Do you think I can achieve my goal?