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you still have some walls up. you let the person in, but not all the way.. but you tell them you love them anyway because thats how you feel.

no need to read this but this is where my question is coming from- I feel like thats the way I am with my boyfriend and I want to get over it so badly. we've been together at least a year and I thought that by now, id have been able to let my guard down. even with this, i know he can still hurt me. I mean, he had. even with me still being kind of a close person. main reason why I can't imagine him hurting me when/if I become completely open with him. he's open with me. thats probably how a person should be when they're in a relationship, lol. he knows I am still not and I think he's just waiting and giving me time to be on the same page as him.

He is twenty and he was overweight back than, loosed a lot of weight by now and he is really fine, an intelligent humorous and curious guy who never had a girlfriend but feels lonely for that.. His style even didn't scared me of, when we met at first, I knew we'd be really good friends to each other and I feel sorry for wanting to change his style but at the same time, he deserves to be himself while wearing comfortable clothes that fit him well. I really don't have bias upon a person's style and I accept him for who he are, but he's now old enough to have some responsibility for what he is wearing. His bust is like that of a woman with an A-cup. So I suppose it could be difficult to find clothes fitting his upper body. He wears t shirts from that time he was overweight and it does absolutely not look good.

When it gets to his lower body, he has beautiful strong and manly legs but always does wear his black sweatpants that even don't fit him well it sometimes looks like he pooped in his pants cause they slipping down. All of his long pants have a few holes that you can see and that ruin his personality completely. Also I worry for that smartass finding a job that doesn't care about looks.

I know you if you really like someone for who they are then let them be as they are. It's not like I don't know that, and I'm absolutely not embarrassed. I just want to see him happy in his own skin again. That style even doesn't fit his personality he said that is comfortable. But---my darling---why don't he wears sweatpants then, that fits him at least? He said because he didn't think about it when money arrives, it's all about alcohol, cigarettes, gaming and weed. So if I was going to buy him some clothes, because I really know he likes them as well, but had to spend my own money. How would you see it? Is it disperectful of me doing that?