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First and foremost let me just say, yes I am aware that the N-word is a slur, racially against African-Americans to be specific. But in much of the same way that cookie, monkey, ape, or the abbreviated version of raccoon is, and even Uncle Tom (fun fact: my half-Asian, half-Caucasian therapist's uncle is named Tom).

Today I went to a restaurant, and I will not mention which one because of privacy reasons, but this guy looked at me disturbed while I was greeting him with a simple "hi." I thought that he and a female coworker were being very rude for not greeting me back. I yelled, convincing him to say "hi" back. He was basically tone-policing me and I did not like that the two workers had poor manners.

Mind you I was raised in a semi-strict, bordering on conservative Christian household where manners were very much a big deal. The hi/hello/hey, please, thank you, and occasionally the sir/ma'am (my parents didn't require me to refer to them or their relatives as such).

Anyway, back on topic, I questioned their poor manners and went full on political (like I usually do in my emotional outbursts). This time instead of being anti-Trump I went full pro-Trump and even pro-DeSantis, but in my heart I was really mocking the fundamentalist part of the Trump and DeSantis fanbases for their lack of manners and for wanting to get rid of critical race theory.

I feel like these workers were very racist towards me. So I wanted to give a full shot by testing to see if they really were. I am not fully White, only about two-thirds (though I mark myself as such in applications). My paternal grandfather is mixed with Middle Eastern and Black. My Blackness veils in me, but I don't let it be the main factor of me. I never even considered myself Black before finding out my ancestors.

The way that I used the N-word, however, was not racist even with the hard 'r'. It was meant to be synonymous with "ignorant". The employee chased after me with a pocket knife and I ran away very quick.

Are you the type that likes being chased? as in you pull away or go cold and want them to chase after you? they constantly message you hoping you give in and reply?

Say, I have asked a girl out and she said no. Should I chase after her or let it go?