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A girl I was wanting to marry is marrying someone else on April 22. I am having a really hard time coping with it.

She never had a male friend before she met me. She never had a boyfriend, first love, first kiss, and was still a virgin. I thought I found the one at one point. We carried an online thing for several months until I met her for the first time in person, and she discovered I wasn't her type. She ended up meeting some other guy shortly after who she fell in love with and they are getting married in like 2 weeks.

Meanwhile, I am still single with hardly any friends and live on my own.

I wonder if I will ever find a other girl like her, one without a romantic past.

I have been struggling with a lot of depression lately. I am 27 (turning 28 this year) and never had a real girlfriend before.

Back in June 2020, I met this girl on a coding forum. We really hit it off and had an online thing going for 5 months. I finally met her in person in November of 2020, where she discovered I wasn't her type. I was heartbroken.

She never had a male friend before she met me. She was a devout Catholic girl that was sheltered and homeschooled her entire life in the farmlands of rural Illinois along with 6 other siblings. She never had a boyfriend before, never kissed, and was a virgin. She was exactly the girl I was looking for, because I sought a girl without a romantic past, and she was perfect.

I was very heartbroken when she broke up with me. I didn't really count her as a real girlfriend because what we had was almost all online and she dumped me when we met in person for the first time.

Anyways, she met some other guy whom she became serious with back in early 2020. She was engaged to him a few months later, and they are expected to be married on the 22nd this month. I have been struggling about it, especially because her wedding day is approaching. This guy will get to be her first everything... her first love, the first guy to see her naked, the first guy to take her virginity, and everything!

Me and my girlfriend have been official since November of 2021. We started talking May 30th, 2021. I already knew her before because we used to be co workers and i have had her on social media for years but she always had a boyfriend so never really talked to her like that, I always had small crush on her.

About a month that passes by and at this point I probably hung out with her about 8-10 times. She invites me over to her new place for a little get together with friends to celebrate her new spot, everything seems normal but then another guy walks in the house and her mood sorta switches on the spot. At this point she dosen't pay much attention to me and just sorta haves me there looking stupid. I start to get jealous because this guy was making small comments to her that make it seem like he was trying to flirt with her. I start to get upset and I tell her im leaving. I was expecting her to ask me to stay over like she did the night before but she didn't. The whole night after I left i couldn't stop thinking that she's probably going to sleep with that guy but I just let it go.

Fast forward about 4 months and things are getting more serious. I decide to ask her about that night and she denies that she did anything it for a few days then one day she said "Okay, we just kissed but that was it" She started begging me so i giver her another chance. I don't believe her but i just let it go.

Another 2 moths or so pass by and we are now official. It is around November now and I ask her again, i make it seem like someone told me and I ask her again? She starts crying and she says YES. My heart literally sank. Ever since then we have fought dozens of times, we are still together but I just can't forget that night. That is the root of all the problems we now have, it has gotten mentally draining , We have gotten cops called on us because of how bad it gets when we argue. I know we weren't official but the way she did it just bothers me.