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Marshall is 15, he has two siblings. Emily who's 5, and John who's two. Marshall often takes care of them. He cooks their meals, makes their bed and comforts john when he's fussy. Marshall works at Wendy's and uses his paycheck to take his siblings on fun trips. Sometimes Marshall screams at them, hits them, pushes them and breaks things because he's so upset and stressed out. He sometimes takes showers with his two siblings, and Emily saw his penls a few times and he didn't mind. Marshall also combs their hair. Emily cries and acts fussy. Marshall wanted to punch her, slap her and lock her in the closet upstairs. He eventually hits and pulled her hair in a quick fit of rage, Emily yelps in pain. Marshall realized what he was doing and felt sick. He's so embarrassed and wonders if this is normal. He also has daily thoughts of killing himself, imaging his siblings dead or stabbed, and physically assaulting his siblings/ locking them in dark closets. when he's really angry with someone he sees a picture of them dead in his head. It makes him sick, he feels like a monster.

He eventually hit them, locked both of them in a closet then he went grocery shopping. He let them out, ambled into his room and hides under the covers. He tries not to cry because now he cries hard enough to make himself vomit and his throat still hurts from the last time he wailed/ sobbed. He drifts off into sleep and dreams about happy, peaceful memories from when he was younger.