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I served time in juvie center from 2010-2016. Then from 2016-18 I was under additional supervision and still seeing shrinks. By now I'm trying to be a better person but my criminal past is going to limit the dating pool that's for sure. I do feel remorse for my actions.

For those wondering what it was, what I'm about to write is a strong content. It's very bad.

2010:
- My friend and I set fire to a car. Our ages were 11 and 10. I was the younger girl and the meaner one.
- We took two 1st graders (lying to them about taking them to the fair with their parents) and once we got to an isolated location, started beating them and placed them on a huge garbage bin with crawlies. There was some more to it than just a beating but won't say it. Both were taken to the hospital and one almost suffocated because he had asthma.

For several months, I would spy on my neighbor and his two dogs. Then just a week before those events, my neighbor let me take his dogs (a Shepherd and a Lab that trusted me) for a walk. I did and fed them. Upon serving their bowls, I whispered to them ''sweet dreams''. It was poison, followed by an injection. The old man (he was in his 60's then) was devastated and I hid in a corner, laughing. He found out right on the following week. He went after my mother and reported it.