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My Boyfriend of 3 years now. We live together & for the most part have been good. We connect very well. However, he has been insisting in having a family together now. I have been so hesitant for various of reasons. I am mother of 13 year old twins. Divorced. & because kids are expensive & big responsibility. A lot of my current freedom will be lost again. My kids are older and a bit more independent. I just felt that I was not ready for that step yet, at time. Time has passed and I had truly had a talk w/him. I do see a future w/ him & him as well. I took serious months to think and decided to this. We have already made a plan. I would just work part time once the baby was born or work something out with my current employer to work at home (especially since my employer would be okay with that). I told him we need to have scheduled sex. Meaning there will be times we have to do it even though we are not on the mood to. However, last night I told him I was ovulating and we needed to have sex. He goes and says man…right now? Why? I’m tired (he did not work that day), I’m too lazy. Why do we have to do it right now? Can we do it another time?
Today …I had another conversation and I just blew up on him and reminded him what we talked about. How we needed to have unexpected or scheduled sex. He was aware of what we needed to do. Now…just made me doubt myself about this whole process and make me feel as I no longer want to proceed with this. I told him I don’t think you’re fully committed and ready for this. I don’t think I want have anymore kids. Especially like this. Where I feel I jumped in 100% now and he just backs off and just tells me he just was not in the mood?
I storm off… cool down. I was upset. I come back to apologize to him 15 mins later. For him to say. It doesn’t have to be that time you want it to be? We have time to do it? Really? I told you how it worked and I get this answer?

Did I overreacted?