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So I kept it to myself and decided to block him to get over those feelings, so I kept unblocking him and talking to him but he never said anything negative he would always tell me it's been a while and I feel like a shitty person, so it's 5 years now and I'm still in love with him but every time we talk it seems like his moved on, like he doesn't talk to me much like he used to, he doesn't ask me questions like he used to, and he also talks about this one girl he likes even tho I like him, I keep trying to move on as well but I can't , but i know that I was the bad person for blocking him for years and coming back, I think I've blocked him 10 times now but came back 4 months or 1 year later, I already told him "I love you" and he responds "I love you to buddy" so I just know his moved on, when I text him he takes hours , days , or even weeks to reply and if he does he'd say he forgot or he is seeing the message now, I really wanna move on and I want your help on that, should I just tell him goodbye and move on? Because he is the first guy I've loved but I messed up so I'm the one to blame, every time he texts me my stomach drops, and everytime I text him I just don't wanna stop because I can text him for hours and hours and never get tired but he seems to always respond minutes or hours late, he doesn't text me good morning anymore or goodnight I really miss the old us, I wonder how it would have been if I never blocked him and just kept talking to him, maybe we would have been something , so I was thinking should I just text him for the last time and say my goodbye? I really need help with this answer because I can't decide and I'm overthinking too much

27F, I’ve officially come to terms with the fact I’ll end up alone. I’ve been on and off the apps for years, I really don’t think I’m that unattractive but the dating apps have indicated otherwise. I get a good bit of matches and guys reach out, it always either dies out or it isn’t reciprocated from the guy or I. I’ve tried almost every app, paid and free. I have one app installed, there was one time last year where I deleted the app for 6 months. Currently, I swipe on profiles maybe every other week or reply to messages 2-3 times per week. I don’t have friends so the apps are my only avenue considering I’m a homebody. I do know they work for some though, people have said I’m cute/attractive etc but guys never approach me in person. I used to purposely hold back and try to play hard to get, now I’m at the point where I have to force myself to open the app and remember to reply to this guy and so forth. I don’t want kids, id be down to get married but really worry about the reality that id have to be sexual knowing guys urges and so. I am not sexual, I haven’t had sex or masturbated in years. Maybe the right guy will change that?
Also, certain things about guys kinda turn me off, almost every guy I’ve known including my dad who I’m close with has dickish/macho tendencies and I don’t have patience for it lol.

TL;DR: does it sound like my dry spell/bad luck with dating apps stem from lack of interest? Or am I bitter?