Search Results: how to get my confidence up

Not trying to toot my own horn here. Like I am the type who is definitely not conventionally attractive. I am not masculine, don't even have all my hair, can't grow facial hair, and skinny. i am not tall either 5'8. It doesn't happen a lot, but every once in a while I'll get asked out my a woman who is at best an acquaintance. It's rare but I've been flat out asked out by female strangers. I have a bad level of honesty as well to the point I have even self sabotaged potential relationships by criticizing and lets just say not marketing myself well. Yet some of these women still want to pursuit me even after all of that. My only good flaw is that I have hard work ethic. That's it and most of these women don't know that. So I just don't know what they see in me. Some are below attractive and some are so incredibly attractive and due to my stupid low confidence and honest nature I tell them they can do better than me. Because I know they can. It takes along time for me to open up and show my uncommon funny side that you people get to see but only cause we are on the internet.

I've had a hard time finding someone to date or marry. I dated one girl for a long time and almost married her and she decided we couldn't be together over her religion and went and married another guy.
It took a long time for my heart to heal and I tried dating again. Only to be a rebound the next girl was only stringing me along until she found what she wanted.
Last girl I talked to was a connection so much like the first girl, I thought it was a game changer. But she told me she's not looking for a relationship and she's not all that attracted to me.

Losing the religious girl shattered me and I was in a state of depression for a few years. I got hurt at work, I gained 60 pounds and struggled with work.

I'm trying to turn it around but I don't think I can. I'm tired of getting hurt and wasting my time on people who don't feel the same about me. I just don't feel good enough anymore.

My confidence and respect are just absolutely shot and I don't know what else to do. I've tried putting myself out there but it keeps biting me.

I don't know what else to do except stop looking and keep to myself and just do nothing.