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Copied from my other account because I'm stupid and chose the wrong gender there:

Since the moment I've met him, he's had my undivided attention. If we weren't coworkers, I would have immediately asked him out.

At work, we constantly pick on and roast each other and laugh about inside jokes. A coworker noted our relationship as being obnoxiously sibling-like, but my boss was sure we'd end up dating.

Just recently though, I had to move away for work. At my going-away party, I became certain he treats me differently from others. We were all drinking so things are fuzzy, but I know he was glued to my side the entire night. And it was easy to catch eye-contact with him because he was looking at me a lot. At one point we had a conversation which became suggestive, and I was sure it was going somewhere, but then he said "i like ya, i love ya, but it would be weird". I dropped it because I didn't want to make him uncomfortable. After that it was back to picking on each other and having a good night with friends. Then, when we were the last two at the bar, he picked me up, carried me to the roadside, hugged me, said he'd miss me, and ran to his taxi. I was left confused on the sidewalk before heading home.

Then the night before I left, after saying goodbye to everyone, he drove me to my hotel. We hugged and said we'd miss each other, and just before I walked into the hotel lobby, he called out again to say he'd miss me. He sounded a little emotional.

I've been a wreck since then. Not knowing how he feels is messing with me. I can't figure out if we're just friends and he sees me as a sister, or if he feels the way I do. All I know is that I'm significant to him somehow.

Since I'm now a 4 hour plane trip away, I'm not sure if it's a good idea to confess. I'd get closure and, if he was open, I'd do long-distance in a heartbeat. But if he doesn't reciprocate, I've done something selfish and upset him with the burden of my feelings.

Maybe one of you can see this clearer.

My sister has always been the prettier sibling, she has blonde hair, implants, etc. Recently, I lost 30 lbs and have been looking better than I ever did before.

Couple steps back, my mom posted a national daughters day appreciation post and chose to use an old (uglier) photo of me rather than a recent beautiful updated photo- even tho she was sent the recent photo a few minutes before she made the post. I confided in my sister of how much this bothered me but she told me that she thought I looked fine. I thought this was hypocritical because the photo of her on the post was photoshopped to the T. I personally thought it was weird how she was bothered by the smallest details in her photo but she never saw anything wrong in my old ugly untouched photo.

Back to now, I sent a video to my sister how my hair was naturally curling, she seemed happy for me. But the following night she sent an old photo of all of us and again that bothered feeling came again. I can tell she photoshopped herself but I could be wrong.. but all I’m thinking is, did she do this out of spite? Are these jealous moves or is it just in my head?

The first three photos are screenshots from the video i sent her showing my hair, and the last one is the photo she then sent me. I’m on the far right and she’s on the far left.