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How I non violently silenced a BULLY: PART 1.

So, I can’t remember the quote exactly but the essence is — whatever junk you did to earn their ire, will end up in their books! “ I’m wayyyyy paraphrasing so don’t quote me 💦

& I’m def not referring to slander or gossip…more like a nudge in the direction of “STFU! $hitty stuff you do to other people in life, has consequences.”

Well, I grew up in Toulouse, with my great grandmother from age 4-7 and I loved her her friends loved me my friends loved me I loved them, life was beautiful. She passed, due to sone unfortunately ore planning by my actual parents- whom I never really knew-I fell into the hands of a psychologically imbalanced person and we both fell into poverty.

Coming from another culture another language having been gone schooled and encouraged to forge my own path & now living in constant anxiety bc of my guard tan, well, suffice to say, I was peculiar and poor & for some reason, this did not make me popular. 😂

After a few years of being the school “it girl” for all the wrong reasons- I’m 4th grade, I had attracted attention of a girl who just loved to hate me subsequent to her discovery that I had defined abs (1000 chores & a lean diet will do that 🤷🏻‍♀️) I became her pet project.

My strength is my obliviousness to pettiness bc it does not interest me & for some time, I was literal enough that for the most part her antics just flew right by me and I didn’t care. Eventually she realized subtly was not working AT ALL & became as obnoxious as can be….

I always had a very low threshold for irrational statements. I guess she figured this out snd did her best, & succeeded in getting under my skin. She would do ridiculous things that made no sense & were cruel so the combo was meant to be annoying snd humiliating, and it was. And she delivered this chaos over lunch where I was completely stuck with no exit option.

(continued part 2)

A guy & I had something in the past but we broke up and became friends but there was still some chemistry by the way us. Suddenly, he starts being hot and cold towards me, he'll avoid me one moment and talk to me the next, he just kept switching for no reason. He's a player, he moves from girls to girls for fun, trying to make me jealous too but the relationship doesn't work. We started talking again then he starts snubbing me again and he gets involved with another girl, I thought he's playing her too & trying to make me jealous but they look really happy together tbh. I'm really heartbroken and stuck, I can't move on from him & I have a small feeling he still likes me but his ego is getting in the way. I don't know what to do, I just can't continue feeling like my heart is slowly shattering everyday, I'm seriously hurting. I feel so weak and vulnerable & I hate myself for ever loving him. I honestly wanted to make him feel as horrible as I feel but I'm too nice for that. Its messing with my life ; sleep, school etc cause I was deeply in love with him. Even now, I still can't hate him as i love him. How do I feel nothing towards him? How do I act cold and emotionally unavailable around him? I just want to be free of my feelings, so he wouldn't have power over my emotions anymore. I want to go back to being the flirtatious, happy person I once was. What do I do? How do I detach myself from him? Please help!