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Prior to this job, I worked in financial aid for ~2 years. That was my 1st time ever working in the field but before that job I was an academic advisor. Early on during training when I was on a call with a trainer, I ended up breaking down crying bc I felt overwhelmed. I ended up pushing through & the trainers let my new team know that I was doing well. Eventually ended up having higher metrics compared to a lot of people on my team. Anxiety was always there but I got *better*, I was miserable at that job though due to the workload.

Now I’m in my 3rd week working for another school remotely in FA again, this is a school I’ve been trying to get in at for almost as long as I was at my other job (mostly bc of pay). I’m training by myself with the manager & I like her so far, she keeps telling me that I’m doing a good job (I’m not asking) & she felt the need to let the whole team know that I’m doing good/picking up fast when I was introduced to them earlier this week. This job is more in depth vs the last job & she even told me that they only hire people with experience now bc of how much there is to it. When she first taught me something new, it took a few tries & I picked it up, then she teaches me something else & I get it the first try.

I made my first 2 calls today & I felt shaky, she also said nicely that the first few calls will feel like that/ it was obvious it was one of my first calls but I did a good job. I felt like a wreck + then she gave me another assignment of something I caught onto before but I ended up getting stuck this time. I was obv frustrated & it was right before I was done for the day but I just couldn’t think straight bc I felt so upset with my progress.

Am I being too hard on myself? Am I right to believe this might not be a good fit for me? I’ve been so upset since I clocked out & am dreading tomorrow.

I have my reasons why I'm still like this. I've been like this my whole and people find me weird for some odd reason. My high school years were the worst for me. Everyone used to judge me for no reason. Called me ugly and called me a boy. When clearly I was a girl. Boys knew I was a girl so why did the girls think I was a boy? My self esteem was so low back then and still is. I never did anything to anyone and nobody stayed my friend for long. Everyone from high school left me for no reason which really hurt me because I did nothing to them. Out of the blue one old “friend” texted me after 5 years. At that point I lost her number so I messaged “Who is this?” she never messaged me back. Some people really get on my nerves so that's the reason I'm silent. It's so hard to make friends nowadays because I was hurt years ago. Any advice would be really appreciated.