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You can skip all the paragraphs, at the end there'll be comments on what makes everything suspicious to me. But it might not make sense without the story.

So basically there was a guy that I rejected. And I told him about that because that guy was making me feel bad. Anyways to make a long story short, he made me feel better. Afterwards, my friend came up to poke me, which made me spazz out. He later found out I was ticklish and he started poking me on my sides. Afterwards, he told me that he'd stop. Which I replied, no it's fine I don't mind, and he continued. During that time he was sitting down a chair with his legs super wide open. And in between that chair was another chair, and I was sitting on that chair. And he was poking me And then he asked me if I wanted to get pizza with him, which I agreed.

Anyways, so in the car, he was talking for 3 hrs about himself and his best friend, and how his best friend died and committed suicide. Made me cry and so I gave him a hug which lasted for like a minute. Later we just had a normal conversation about relationships. He said that he would never go for virgins because they're too clingy and he was thinking what kind of girl he would want (sense of humor, blunt, and awkward). 20 minutes later, he asked if I was a virgin which I said yes then we talked about how I have humor, blunt, and awkwardness. And then after that we started trying to have awkward contest (He was trying to do creepy things such as smell hair u know weird stuff). Figured out that both of us couldn't feel awkward around each other. Then we got out of the car because I said I could beat him up cuz I know martial arts. So we sparred outside a little. Which I kept on losing because he has longer arms. After that it got to a just him trying to make me feel awkward outside contest as a goodbye... So he hugged me and poked me, or hug+hump, or hug+poke which made me look like I was going down.

So people say they're only together because she helped him through his mums suicide so he feels guilty. But he also forgave her for sending nudes to his best mate.

But im also completely different to her. She parties and has big boobs and stuff but there's me, plain and boring. People tell me that (he's way out of my league) he wouldn't give a shit about what his mates think about people he dates- but I don't want to be the person he downgraded to either.

I really like him but he's put me in the friend zone and my friends tell me to leave it but I don't know what to do?

I was reading an article about a black girl named Karyn Washington, who committed suicide. I was just thinking all day yesterday about how a lot of black girls don't commit suicide. I just kept thinking about it ALL night. Then, in the middle of the night I kept hearing these thoughts telling me to kill myself. It wasn't demon voices, it was like I was forcing myself to think these thoughts. It got so bad I started to cry and walk around my room and I even hung my jump rope around my closet thing because I was getting ready to hang myself but then I decided to try and calm myself down so I turned on the lights and played some Drake. LoL, his songs make me happy. But, I just feel so weirded out by it and I don't know I feel like I might have to be put in a mental hospital or something.

Please don't tell me to go to a therapist, because that means i'd have to tell my mom and we don't have that "oh, i'll get you the help you need," relationship. We have more of a, get your self together type one. I don't know. I don't know I feel crazy.