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me and my boyfriend had dated for 3 years no problems or arguing. then for the past year I've had problems at work caused me depression and anxiety I'm on tablets for it after being off ill which my boyfriend supported. then last year in September I meet my dad for the first time ever which boosted my confidence. then in March this year things went worse for me more problems at work and family losses most upsetting was my grandad who I was very close too. after this I started gambling and being quite moody we never went out in the last year just stayed in watching TV. then last month my boyfriend said he wasn't happy and wouldn't really explain after talking and me crying we agreed to stay together. then about 3 weeks ago he said he wanted a break to clear his head he never got in touch every few days I asked if he was alright and he just said I need more time, then after 10 days of this I asked if he wanted to go cinema and go out to which he replied that he was chilled and happy by himself and said he didn't have the guts to tell me it was over! so after that I packed all his stuff and said did he want to pick it up to which he replied he was to busy! so I dumped it outside his house he later on text me saying he made the right decision. five days gone by and he texts me asking how I am and hope that I'm ok I replied yes thanks and he said he wants to be friends he keeps texting me now saying he doesn't want to fall out and going on about being friends! I feel so hurt by him that I don't know what to do? I recently joined badoo to take my mind of things and found him on it nearly everyday he keeps clicking on my profile I haven't mentioned it nor has he. is he just trying to be friends with me so he's got someone to fall back to?