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We matched on hinge and had great text chemistry. And we were both clearly looking forward to meeting each other and really excited about the upcoming date. But then all of a sudden I felt really nervous a bit before the date. And the venue was also loud and cold. And I met her and I could see she wanted to connect. Like when we were queuing for a drink she faced me and I was just facing forward and looking at the menu. She then said she wanted to go outside because she’s got a perfume on which she doesn’t like. Anyway it was freezing and eventually we went back in. But it was awkward in general the whole date. I asked if she wanted to go somewhere else and she said sure but then pulled a face. Then when we got outside she said “you know what I’ve had a really long day and I think I’m going to be really boring and go home. But we should get lunch sometime” and then we walked to the station and she said “you need to send me all these films you’ve suggested”. Then when we got to the station she said “I had a lot of fun, thank you. We should definitely get lunch somewhere and let me know when you get home” and she gave me a hug. I think she was just trying to reject me softly so I sent her “Just got home. I think the venue was a bit off, sorry if it felt awkward. If you’d like to try again somewhere warmer and quieter, let me know. Otherwise have a good weekend :)”

I had (according to Flitzpatrick Scale) Type 1 skin tone as an infant to toddler, but as I got older it went to Type 1-2, and during and after puberty I'm at Type 3 (Type 4 after tanning in the summer). But my palms and soles remain at Type 1, while my genital area is as dark as Type 5 lol. I've done my research and it's impossible for me to revert back to Type 1 in a permanent and safe manner, but if I can obtain Type 2 then that's good enough for me. I'd rather avoid the strong, dangerous ingredients like mercury, steroids, and HQ (hydrowhatever I don't know), and go for safer alternatives so I can keep using them without major side effects. I naturally have a more olive skin tone now, but my palms and soles are fair skin with pink undertones; I don't mind having cream white with olive undertones to get a more yellow look.