Is it weird that I love White people so much?

So here is the thing, all my life I have been raised to hate them for ruining my country but after interacting with them I have turned into White phillic instead of white phobic.

I like to worship white woman as saintly no matter much ugly they think they are.
I am even more convinced that the food I eat and a white girl spit on it is an honor to be eaten. They spitting on the food is respectful.
I really wish women in my country were married to white men or cuckolded by white people. So we get there genes in the children instead of our own genes. At least 2 children shit be from them so the white genes spread even further.
I feel bad when a white person is treated bad by others because of their ancestors doing.

Does it make me a race traitor for preferring white people or black or brown people.
Is it weird that I love White people so much?
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