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Let's call my ex boyfriend for LUKE

Yesterday me and my best friend were texting about work and she suddenly texten this👇, but I tried to play it cool=

She= By the way, would it be okay if I come in contacted with Luke again? I don't want to do it behind your back, that's why I'm asking☺️

Me= As friends or a date?

She= Friends

Me= I was going to say that no matter what, you don't need my permission for that. Sure it's uncomfortable, to be honest, but I would never stop someone from being friends or anything with someone.

She= No, I know that! But I still wanted to ask you because I didn't want to go behind your back, you're still my best friend❤️

Me= That's my honest answer. Well thought out, that's my honest answer anyway.

She= And if you had said no, I wouldn't have contacted him

Me= Cute, but it's okay

She= Okay, good to know❤️
Me= yes

Story = so in 2023 me and this guy Luke dated from May- August, but broke up because he says he had issues with his family and work and is so stressed and can't jungle everything rn or give me the kind of man I want rn. So I thought that I should not be a burden and just accept his excuse and break up. During the first week we were dating , I had asked my friends if they knew him. my best friend sayd she knows him and that they had a small crush on each other when they were teenagers and he had kissed her on the cheek and run. I felt uncomfortable and even tho I had began to like Luke a lot, I was ready to end it, but then my best friend sayd that I don't need to end it because they don't have feelings for each other and that I should not let it come between me and love. So I trusted her words, but still felt uncomfortable and wanted to hear Luke's side of the story too if he likes her or if they were together of something long ago. He sayd no and a assured me that it was just a small crush back then and he doesn't feel anything for her. So I trusted him and felt less ucomfortable.

God I was blind...

I've known this one guy since HS, I was a freshman & he was a junior (14 years ago). We went to neighbor high schools but were friends on FB. We were really close or so I felt. He was there for me for my first heartbreak my senior year. During that relationship he confessed his feelings for me. After I graduated we hung out a few times at his place never even kissed but we would cuddle. I liked what we had bc I was afraid if we got into a relationship & we didn't workout then I would lose him as a friend too. He meant a lot to me. 3 years passed & I got into another relationship, this one was toxic & I couldnt talk to him much but when my ex & I got into fights I would reach out to him again. I spent the night at his place once too again nothing happened. Then when I was 2 months pregnant I was in a domestic violence situation with my ex & I had nowhere to go so I reached out to him to stay at his place but this time he said no. he was very cold with me. I was so hurt I removed him from socials and didn't speak to him for years. Another 3 years passed & I moved an hour away. He reached out to me wanting to know about my life & if BD was in the picture. He is not. This time he was in a 2y long relationship. I told him I was hurt because he didn't help me when I needed him. he said it was because he was mad at me for being with someone else & having their baby. I mentioned to him I was moving out of state soon so he suggested we meet one last time & said he could drive the hour to me. I said no & used the excuse that we were still freshly into the pandemic. He added me on social media again & then about a year later removed me. I don't know why. So I messaged him & asked if what I posted had offended him, he said no & that was it. But actually it wasn't I figured since that was the end of our friendship I told him I had had feelings for him previously & the reason I never spoke up about it, that I also felt he was all wishy washy with me. (Continued below)