How and why am I supersubmissive? l but yet online I have an attitude of a punk?

I’m goth either way and Im trying to start dressing goth like I did as a teen cause I miss it.

but irl guy have called me subservient LMFAO. I am super quiet everyone always comments on that.
I’m shy and I’m dating scenarios I’m extremely sub to the point my last dating scenario the guy was controlling my food intake, and what I wear daily. And that was VIA THE INTERNET before we had met. Lmao.

and before him I had a guy online who was actually dominating me through the phone and forced me with his mind and words to make him cüm against my will. I’m super subby

How and why am I supersubmissive? l but yet online I have an attitude of a punk?
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